ahhhh life. things take a turn when you never expect it. for those who don’t know, i got retrenched. who would have thought. it’s quite depressing really. affecting me is not such a bad thing as i can deal with it but it affects D too. i mean it’s not the end of the world, it’s just bad timing.
for a while now D has been eyeing a car he’s been wanting but of course we bought a new place, had to pay for our wedding and it wasn’t the right time. thinking that’s it’s been some time, everything’s more settle, the house it sorted, the wedding is done it is a good time to get that car he has wanted for a while. so after looking at the same car for a year, we finally headed to the dealers, told them what we wanted and ask them to hunt it down for us. “not a problem” they said. the very next day, i was told that my postition had been made redundant ish! fine…. nevermind. 2 days later, the dealer calls to say that they have found what we wanted -_- wahlauz damn fast. then again, they always had very good service.
you see, if i had been told a day before … we hadn’t had gone to the dealers and wouldn’t be soooo close to getting the car D wants. oh and of course we wouldn’t have put our car up for sale too. it’s not that we can’t afford it. *fingers crossed* i will find a job soon… very soon i hope (getting stressed out that i’m not working) but we don’t really want to commit into something without my steady income. i just feel terrible coz if it weren’t for me … we would have got the car. D has told me not to worry about it, it’s not my fault, it’s only a car after all and waiting a while more won’t kill us. so sweet…
but i still can’t help but feel it is…. i’m job hunting now, all recruitment sites are my best friends and waiting to hear some good news; keeping my fingers and toes crossed that something comes along before christmas so my migraine from the stress will go away, so i don’t wake up with that OMG feeling in my tummy everyday and we can get on doing what we want to do without worrying. boooo this sucks *sulk*